So today I hacked on the rough draft. It was hard at first, but after awhile things started flowing a little more freely.  I always start off terrible; write, write, rewrite, then I’m not quite sure what I want to write in the end.

What I wrote about mostly was the relationship between two main characters.

Yes, that’s a pretty lame description, isn’t it? The fact that I can’t sum it up in one line is something that needs to be worked on still.

Here’s a totally irrelevant snippet below:

Jacob. In another lifetime he would have been the perfect partner for her. He was sensitive and sweet, always there for her when she was down or just needed some one to talk to. They shared a department, and reported to the same boss, so there was ample time for flirting, closeness, and even an indecent but romantic proposal from time to time. But, she never let it become anything more than that. She wanted to, but whenever she got too close to him, her heart stopped in her chest, and all she could think about was one person: Rhythm. What would he say, if he knew? She’d keep telling herself that it would be okay, that they’re just friends, and he wouldn’t mind, but she couldn’t escape the doubt. And the fear.

God, the fear. What if Rhythm wouldn’t be “OK” with just being friends? What if he was jealous, so jealous that their fragile relationship would simply break. To even think of it terrified her, and so she pushed Jacob away, choosing her shaky relationship with Rhythm. Things felt so right with Jacob, but he could never give her the same things Rhythm could: the fluttering knot in her stomach whenever he wanted to just hang out with her, the feeling of euphoria she got whenever they made love together, the ways he played her emotions without even realizing it, influencing her ups and downs with things as simple as an approving smile or an annoyed glare.